On Writing…. 5/31/18

Just some of my writings…could go somewhere or not. I totally don’t know where this one is headed.

Blue Ain’t Your Color
“What do you mean?” I could see him staring at his drink across the room. He ignored my question as much as my stare. “I just cancelled all my plans for this trip that you promised we would take.”
He took a sip with a heavy, slow swallow. “I don’t think it’s the right time for us to leave town right now.”
“No.” I threw my keys on the glass table. “You just don’t want to distance yourself from the other girl.” I’d known he was cheating on me for the past two weeks. I just hadn’t wanted to believe it.
He dismissed my statement by looking out the window and refusing to reply.
“So that’s the way this is going to play out?” I looked around the apartment. We had only lived here for three months. It was going to suck paying the rent by myself. “I think you should leave.”
That got Adam’s attention. He finally turned fully around and faced me. “As in move out?”
I looked him over. God, he was gorgeous. And the sex was still good. I was going to miss his body. “Yes. I think you should move out.” Go mooch off your other woman. I didn’t want to turn this conversation ugly. He wasn’t worth my energy. I grabbed my purse and picked my keys back up. “I’ll give you the night to get your stuff out.” I didn’t think I could face the apartment all alone tonight, anyway. Continue reading

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Ask Me…What 3 songs 5/29/18

High Hopes by Panic at the Disco

Allow me to Geek out completely for a minute. I adore Panic! Brendon is a hottie. His music crosses so many genres. And I totally thrive on his Instagram snippits. Especially the interview he does while playing with dogs. LOVE IT!!!! His new album, Pray for the Wicked is coming out soon and I am in heaven all over again.

Mama said
Burn your biographies
Rewrite your history
Light up your wildest dreams
Museum victories, everyday
We wanted everything, wanted everything

Mama said don’t give up, it’s a little complicated
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Inside My Journal…5/27/18

Snippets from my secret side… Is it a recent entry or from years ago…does it matter?

I still can’t tell whether I’m okay or not. Am I happy? What is happy? I am lazy, unmotivated, tired, lazy, fat, slobbish, but am I unhappy? I can’t tell because i can’t feel!

I haven’t attempted to do something I’m afraid to do. Does that make me weak? Fearful? Or just not adventurous?

Ask Me…what 3 songs 5/26/18

So,today I found my old Ipod nano and squealed with delight. It’s been missing for about almost a year. I found it in an old purse. (I have way to many of those!) I couldn’t wait to see what great oldies were on it and share my next couple posts. So let’s begin…

Rockabye by Clean Bandit

She tells him “ooh love”
No one’s ever gonna hurt you, love
I’m gonna give you all of my love
Nobody matters like you (stay up there, stay up there)
She tells him “your life ain’t gonna be nothing like my life (straight)
You’re gonna grow and have a good life
I’m gonna do what I’ve got to do” (stay up there, stay up there)

This song is one of those that I like to listen to when I need energy to exercise or to clean. I like the beat. The words are simple enough to understand and to sing along to. And Anne-Marie’s voice is a good one.  Continue reading

What I’m Reading Right Now 5/21/18

Black Dagger Brotherhood

Have you heard of them?

J.R. Ward writes divine alpha male stories.

I’m on book three right now. It’s not my first go at this series, however, she has written three books I’ve not read. I figured I would re-read them, catch up on the characters, and then dive into the newest books.

I’ve heard that Lara Adrian’s Midnight Breed series is similar. Has anyone read her series? Do you suggest it or do you have a better suggestion?

I’d love to know your thoughts!

What I….Saw

We each experience things that change us.

Moments that teach us. Force growth. Alter our beings and we are forever different than the previous moment.

Today it was a simple little event. My first child, now almost 19, about to graduate, went to prom. But that is not what I’m going to share about today.

No. I’m going to share about the crazy things you’ll do, the length and depths for your children. It sounds silly but I wanted the event to be special, you know? Yes, I realize that there are millions who never even get to go to school much less prom. I’m not in the least bit ignorant of the many blessings I have in my life. Having said that, allow me to make you laugh, or cringe, depending on the type of person you are.

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Ask Me…What 3 Songs 5/19/18

Good Evening/Morning Folks,

So…what’s on your playlist? I like to share mine in hopes of lighting a fire within you viewers but also per chance to introduce you to something new. So here goes…

Mambo No. 5 by Lou Bega

Ladies and gentleman, this is mambo number five
One, two, three, four, five everybody in the car, so come on
Let’s ride to the liquor store around the corner
The boys say they want some gin and juice
But I really don’t wanna, beer bust like I had last week
I must stay deep because talk is cheap

Bega started singing at the age of 11. This song became big in 1999. I absolutely loved it! Although he had multiple albums after this first, none did quite as well, and that’s putting it nicely. I don’t know why, I just love bopping along to it. What do you think? 🙂  Continue reading

Midnight Musings 5/19/18

Image result for midnight       Midnight Musings

 

I’d only just found peace. It creaked into my life, like an old man with a cane. Still, at least it arrived. I’d finally shut down the inner eye, calmed the visions, the voices. I could breathe a sigh of relief. Until i couldn’t. He stole the memories within me, and now being used against me. Taunting me, pressuring me back into the madness. What choices does one have when all choices are ripped away? Now I look down the barrel of a gun if I go one way and walk off a cliff if I go the others.

He tells me it’s time I pay my dues. The burden heavy, the debt too big. I think I’ll never be able to, but I must. To save Him. I will. I left the bag on the porch, at the door. Who knows what lies behind it. Within the bag is dirt, mud, dust. The first two buried the last once upon a time. How is it he can play god, raise life from that dust? Does it even matter?

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Editing and other fun stuff

So this week I did something…

I ordered the proof version and got to hold this thing in my hand. It’s so far from being ready, but man it felt great having it in my hands. I can’t edit my writing while staring at a computer screen. I like to have the book in my hand so I can take it everywhere I go. I’m going to mark this thing up all to hell. By the time I’m done with it, it will look like it’s been through the ringer a dozen times. Then I can sit back down and begin making all the official changes. Continue reading