Mother’s Touching Journal of Anguish and Despair After Loss Is Shared in New Memoir, Unspeakable! A Mother’s Journey
For a parent, there is no greater fear than the death of a child. Unspeakable! A Mother’s Journey is the frank, heart-wrenching account of one mother’s painful, unfathomable journey after the loss of her daughter.
Columbia, MD – Kay Armstrong Baker, like many proud mamas, looked forward to taking the joyful leap from motherhood to a new role as doting grandmother. On Aug. 27, 2000, all her hopes and dreams suddenly dissolved into a nightmare of unremitting, unimaginable pain. Baker recounts the tragic death of her pregnant daughter and her struggle to make sense of life in the aftermath of loss in the frank, touching new memoir, Unspeakable! A Mother’s Journey, published by Outskirts Press.
A pleasant family dinner was on the agenda that fateful day for Kay, her husband, John, and her daughter, Courtney. Courtney’s first trimester had been plagued with arrhythmia, dehydration, nausea, and migraines and seemed only to worsen with time. When word came from Courtney’s roommate that she was in the ER again, her parents were naturally concerned. But Courtney always landed on her feet. She’d get through this, too.
What unfolded next is indelibly seared into Kay Armstrong Baker’s memory, a horror that no parent can imagine or fully absorb:
“We arrived at the ER. I told the receptionist who we were. A security guard led us to a ‘family room.’ I knew that this was not the usual procedure and was beginning to worry that Courtney had lost the baby. Her roommate and two or three other co-workers from the ambulance company were there. There was also a policeman which I thought was unusual. He asked us if we were Courtney’s parents. We told him we were. He then excused himself to get the doctor.
“John and I will never forget the next scene. The doctor came into the room, sat down and said, ‘Courtney has died.’ Just like that. ‘Courtney has died.’ We have replayed that scene over and over again in our minds. It felt like an electric shock had coursed through my body! We felt disbelief and dismay. What we had feared for so long had finally happened.”
This gut-wrenching day and the years that followed were filled with despair, denial, anger, emptiness and hope are poured out in achingly vivid fashion in Unspeakable! Baker shares a compilation of profoundly personal experiences with the hope that other grieving parents can gain comfort in knowing they are not alone in their journey through grief.
About the book:
Unspeakable! A Mother’s Journey by Kay Armstrong Baker
Publisher: Outskirts Press
Date of publish: January 2014
About the Author:
Kay Armstrong Baker was born in Wisconsin. She received a degree in Music Education and Music Therapy from the University of Kansas. Ms. Baker has lived in many regions of the United States and has traveled to Canada, Mexico, the Caribbean, South America, Europe, Russia, China and Japan, as well as most of the States. Kay has worked in retail, as a music therapist, and was a realtor for 24 years before retiring in 2011. She plans to pursue legacy and memoir writing in this next chapter of her life.